THE KEY IS WILLINGNESS.

2010. woke up in Readsboro.
Open the door more. That is something to do.
For the best possible relates.
For the sake of the one who still suffers.  
pride and self will.  Give  it up.
 I never wanted that.
All I ever wanted was to be the biggest shot in the dark.
What the hell does that mean.
GOD is in charge.
Wake up. Will it.
GOD cares.
 I accept. That’s  my life.  
Scared, lonely, mad that is what I have to admit
and let go of it. O GOD grant…..