AS WE UNDERSTOOD HIM

L5c Judgment is adultery worshiping GOD. 
religion is contaminated by judgment
if i guide god 
how can god guide me.
O GOD grant me the serenity....

SURRENDERING SELF WILL

2010. Fillmore Pond today. .
When my will is in line with GOD’s will for me,
there is peace.
Lack of peace? Resisting?
O GOD grant.........

TURNING IT OVER

2010. . Dealing with the self centered fears. i.e. embarrassments.
GOD and his cause became my cause.
Keeping me sober and growing in character.
Thinking of others.
All this took my mind off my self interest.
what others thought of me.
I live to be sobriety not for appearance.
O GOD grant….

THE KEY IS WILLINGNESS.

2010. woke up in Readsboro.
Open the door more. That is something to do.
For the best possible relates.
For the sake of the one who still suffers.  
pride and self will.  Give  it up.
 I never wanted that.
All I ever wanted was to be the biggest shot in the dark.
What the hell does that mean.
GOD is in charge.
Wake up. Will it.
GOD cares.
 I accept. That’s  my life.  
Scared, lonely, mad that is what I have to admit
and let go of it. O GOD grant…..

A LIFE LONG TASK

2010. A LIFE LONG TASK. 
Why should I wait a life? 
Did I ever pray for patience? 
I was out of the seminary. 
I was finished. 
Everything was perfect [in Swanton].
I was ready to conquer the world. 
[one drink] why should it be just one] 
One step at a time. 
The results is in GOD’s care. 
Your way not mine o LORD. O GOD grant…..

WEEDING THE GARDEN

WEEDING THE GARDEN. 
Unremitting Willing to make a change in order to grow better. 
Responsible to change for the better. 
It’s a never ending struggle against the disease of alcoholism, 
not always the symptom of drinking. 
My sobriety grows and bears fruit. 
Less harm, less complaining, less offense….
o GOD grant ……

It WORKS – IT REALLY DOES.

2010.  The colonoscopy. Jo transportation.

 I was home at 10;30; had breakfast and I think I know it.

 Last time I couldn’t figure out where I was at 2003 3pm that afternoon. 

IT DOES WORK. From the first meeting. 

They were all suffering from the same thing I was trying to hide. 

And they were living with it ‘happy joyous and free’. 

I could be one of them if I don’t drink and go to meetings. O GOD grant …..